welcome as cancer

happy birthday to me.

2005-03-23T19:28:00.000+08:00

at around 12 in the afternoon on 23rd march 1989, my mom squeezed that final squeeze and out came a baby. me. yippee..
thanx to all who wished me happy birthday.. love you ALL..
thanx to all who gave me presents.. you are officially on my "people i most like" list.. Love you more.. hehhehhhh..
thanx to those who forgot. now you remember. go. get me a present. :D

2005-02-28T21:37:00.000+08:00

dubai pics are up. enjoy. www.public.fotki.com/holiday1/. ive linked it unde the pictures section.

yea sure. ignore me.

2005-02-28T19:49:00.000+08:00

thats what everybody seem to love to do. always been, always will be. im always good for ignoring right?
i know you knew. everybody knew. ive been talking about it since god-knows-when. ive never really asked any of you for any big favours. never asked for your help before. now the only chance ive got, you took it away. if you dont want me involved, just say it to my face. dont make excuses. i know i dont fit in. isnt it obvious? im a goddamned GIRL. so dont tell me youre sorry. dont tell me the "i thought ive told you" story. im not buying it anymore. not one bit. and i AM UPSET.

ka pui.

2005-02-21T20:11:00.000+08:00

tests suck. i am saying no more.

2005-02-17T17:01:00.000+08:00

i cannot tag. stoopid shoutbox. ishk. anyway. went home at 930 am this morning. having my ehem ehem cramps. real bad ones. vomitted twice in skool, thrice when i got home. took 2 panadols and a loooooooooong nap. feeling better now. kk i gtg.

tag replies (or rather, relpY):
[fizo] you really should go! its verrrryyy beautiful.. but go during winter because i heard the summers suck.

im baaaaack. happy v day.

2005-02-14T20:29:00.000+08:00

sorry i didnt update straightaway when i got back. after sitting nine frikkin hours on the plane, you wouldnt want to blame me. went to Dubai. wit a tour group if you were wondering.

ANYWAY! Dubai was grrrrreeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaatttt!
weather: PERFECT.
scenery : BEAUTIFUL.
food: DELICIOUS.(and very very filling)
shopping : WAAAAAAA!!
people(guy-people): hehehhh... CUTE!(wink wink) yeah, and the girls were extremely beautiful too...

so basically we did lotsa shopping. and walking around. finding stuff to buy. the people were very friendly. like if ur in a bus and you wave, theyll smile and wave back. and if you enter the shops, like a textile shop or anything, theyll order teh tarik for you and give you free. the streets are super clean too. except for a few little spit puddles here and there.. they like to spit. ugh. but other than that, the place is clean.
anyway, we arrived at ard 7 am dubai time(ard 4 pm here)checked into our hotel rooms(me n my sis got one to ourselves, very pretty room)and straightaway went shopping. we went to this malaysian textile shop, the makciks LOVED it. we spent almost half a day there. good thing there were couches. i actually slept there for half an hour.
at night we went to this place called Global Village. its this huge area in the desert where traders from all over the world sell their stuff there. each country has its own decorated area. there were loads of countries who sell their stuff. even singapore was one of em. feet were very tired from walking. the place was huuuggee.

second day was the best. we went to the desert!!!! we rode the sand dunes on a four-wheeled drive. it was ffuuuuuunnnnn!!!!! i want do it again. its kindof like a roller coaster but in a car. on the ground. super bumpy, super fun. the driver couldnt stop laughing when we were screaming. best experience EVER. and the desert was soooo beautiful. we stopped a couple of times to see the sand dunes n take pictures. and we watched the sunset. *sigh*. beautiful.
at night, the driver took us to this area in the middle of the desert. its like a square area, surrounded by wooden walls and palm leaves. and everything is so traditionally arab. there were alot of tourists but the place was big enough to seat everybody. we had a traditional arab barbecue dinner. under the stars. in the cold desert. i could not describe how cold it was. freezing. the tables were low, lit up with oil lamps and we sat on pillows. the stars were sooo bright. u can never see stars like that here because its too lit-up here. it was sooo beautiful. after dinner, there was a belly-dancing performance. one-woman show. she was super skilled. after that we went back to the hotel. i love the 2nd day. wish i could do it again..

3rd, 4th, 5th day, shopping shopping shopping. 5th day night, went back home...

awwww... i wana stay there...........

anyway. happy v day ppl. love you all! ;P

leaving on a jet plane.

2005-02-07T21:49:00.000+08:00

bye blogspot.
bye school.
bye singapore.
bye friends.
bye!!
im leaving..
i wont be seeing all of you anymore..
*sniff sniff*

alah. but only for four days. haha! abeh takooot. heh.
yeah, im off to dubai tomorrow nite. four days. or isit five? but ill be back next week, dont worry. ill buy you something, dont worry. if you miss me, just tag on my board! (and i expect it to be filled when i get back.) ok, have to go now. byebye.

ooohh you dont sayy..

2005-02-05T22:48:00.000+08:00

went to my cousin's new house today. he has a home theater system. WHOA. it was soo cool. watched saving private ryan. then went to causeway point and shopped around for stuff for The Trip. cant wait to get out of this place. even if its a while. so in need of Something New. bored out of wits.
Defenseless. Dependent. and Alone.

2005-02-04T20:01:00.000+08:00

i chopped my hair off. yet again. i know i know. u think im obsessed with short hair. im not actually. im ok with all kinds of hair. just that the weather truly sux rite now and my hair was in a too-short-to-tie-too-long-to-let-go phase and i cant help but chop it off. so yeah. im back to having short hair. heh. my head feels light now. can swish it around. *swish swish*
looking forward to going out wit the babes tmr. weehoo!

sick and sad again.

2005-02-01T21:15:00.000+08:00

fever sux. somehow my head feels like its in an airtight glass container. everythings mumbled. and i can hear a constant "nnnnnngggggg" sound. heh. wierd.
anyway. have not been blogging alot. sorry. just too busy/lazy. or busy and lazy. or just lazy. heh. i hope this fever lasts till tomorrow so i can not go to school. heh. school has been a drag so far. and will continue to be. the only good thing about it is that i have the babes. they keep me sane. or insane. hahak.
k. before i utter more nonsensical crap into all your unpolluted, innocent minds, i better say BYEBYE. byebye!

he is the devil!

2005-01-27T20:08:00.000+08:00

i like lit. its fun. and so.. fun. hhah. really. wit mr row, teaching, never a moment of boredom.
row, row row your boat, gently down the stream. merrilymerrilymerrilymerrily life is but a dream..
:l
:O
:)
:D
:>
:<
?
ALAH! nothing to write ah!

slamat hari raye hajii...

2005-01-22T17:21:00.000+08:00

my weekend was fun. we balik-ed kampong. we korban-ed a kerbau. in spite of all the blood n gore, it was fun. i lost my wallet, or so i thought.it was under the car seat. hah!! i thought i left it somewhere so my mom called the hotel n made sure they checked it out. but it was under the car seat. stoopid me. i took lotsa pictures of the korban process. its up here. but FIRST! before u click, if u cannot stand blood n gore, DO NOT, i repeat, DO NOT go in. but if u dont then ull miss alot ah. hah. k, so, thats it. slamat raye!

"my last name is Harry, my first name is Prince..."

2005-01-19T21:53:00.000+08:00

ngee ann poly is huge.. was at the open house..u have to take a bus just to go round campus.. but then again, all polies are like that, no?
niway, it was fun. looaads of free stuff. cotton candy,ice cream, lolliepops, hello panda, pen, pencil box, goodie bag, and a whole lot of papers. dont they just love to give papers...
dooodidoooo.... bussiness n accounting? *scratch* Life sciences? *scratch scratch* engineering? *scratchscratchscratch* mass com? *maybe?*
ishk. scary shit.

forever. and after.

2005-01-18T21:48:00.000+08:00

i have only one thing to say.
we should AALLL use our imagination... :D

off to town!

2005-01-15T22:01:00.000+08:00

yea, me, shahana n yasmin went out just now.. we met at 10 at causeway, bot food, went over to my house and watched a french movie. stuffed our faces with everything from hotcakes, sushi, chicken sandwiches n whatnots. after that we went to town! wee! went to lotsa places, namely takashimaya, wisma atria, far east plaza, n everything in between. torment for the feet. there was this percussion ensemble and we stayed to watch abit. they were pretty good. BUT! there was this stoopid girl in a super tight super ugly brown tshirt who stood on the parapet and danced. HORRIBLY. she wasnt following the beat and she was dancing like she thinks shes the sexiest female alive. she was jiggling her body n shaking her not-that-wonderful-at-all ass. come on lah k, ur not sexy. stop it. its giving me a headache.
after we watched the percussion ensemble, we went inside taka n looked around. so many shoes, so little time. and money. we practicaly smelt every perfume there, oogled over every eye colour available. then bla bla bla, we went to far east plaza an i found these perfectly cute pair of shoes. so i bot it. yay! heheh. im so happy! then blabla, went home. fun day. the babes were as cute as ever. we so have to do this again..

hahahahhhkk!!

2005-01-10T20:35:00.000+08:00

got this game from my sis's freind's blog. hahak. super fun. ur supposed to try n type your name with what they tell you to. well, i did it!

Fingers:najibah
Chin: nnsazjnhijkgbvhsazhj
One Finger (Eyes Closed) :nahibsg
Cheek: ngfbxcj
Elbow: najhuijkbn sazhjbn
Lips: n aj mibba h
Palm: mn sazbn az
Back of Hand: HJNuij9ihbgaqh
Nose: najimjkbahybn
Tongue: lets skip this one, shall we?
Toes: naszjibazh

so, yay! go try it.

Happy new yeeeaaaarrrrrrr!!!!!

2005-01-08T18:51:00.000+08:00

Fine, so im abit slow.
soooooooooooooooooo, how do u like my new layout? nice? no? and thhe picture of the doll is taken by (ehem), me. weehoo!
so how are u? hows your year so far? do u think its gona be a good year? most importantly, HAVE YOU WASHED YOUR LAST YEAR'S SKULE SHOES?? because i havent. anyway, the last wk in skule was pretty hectic.there was he sec 1 orientation, and the band had to perform for their camp. to be exact, that was yesterday. went back home at 10 plus plus. sooo tired. but it was fun.
k, so.... i still have homework to do, (yes, i am actually DOING homework!) and yeah, see ya.

hah. im back. boo.

2004-12-21T14:53:00.000+08:00

feels kinda shitty to be back. i hate singapore. i have to think about school and that makes my stomach knot up. back to the same ol shit.
ANYWAY!
i went to Sabah. Kota Kinabalu.Went wit my mom, my dad, sis, 2 makciks, 2 pakciks, 3 cousins(married) one kid, 2 babies. kinda nice.. i like the place. everything is so evenly spaced out unlike here where everyhtings crammed like shit in a toiletbowl. and the nights there are so dark u can see billions of stars unlike here where u cant even differentiate day from night, theyre equally bright.

Day 1:
actually we arrived there at night. went out of the airport and saw a man holding a paper that read "MD SATAR AND FAMILY". yeah, ok so dats our tourguide. then we went on the bus and went to the hotel and checked in and slept.

Day 2:
woke up and got ready and packed our stuff and went for breakfast(the hotel food was bluergh) and went on the bus and went to Sabah National Museum. saw longhouses and attap houses and tall houses and shorthouses and many kinds of houses. the tourguide likes to talk crap. i hate him. there were lotsa bridges there. i like it. and one of my makciks who went with us hates hights and it was so funny watching her scream "ABAAAAAANNGG!!! DOKONG MAH BAAAAAANNG!! MAH TAKOT BAAAAAAAAAAAAANNGG!!!" hahak. went to another part of the museum(an air-conditioned part, no cameras allowed)and looked at stuff bla bla. got on the bus, went to the prettiest mosque in sabah(it was pretty). went back on the bus and went to the most high-tech building in sabah which was a huh-why-are-we-here experience cus there was nothing there except for the first-ever-helipad-ive-seen-in-my-life. then we were off to the mountains! slept alot on the bus. woke up and ooh-aahed at the scenery. very very nice on top of mountains ya. reached the resort(right beside mt kinabalu) we were staying in for the night(my room had a very noisy ceiling fan, no aircon because very cold on top of mountains), had lunch. then went to the flower garden. lots and lots of verrryyyyy pretty and i mean veerryy pretty flowers. dirtied my shoes. then went back to the resort and moped around until dinner. had dinner. after dinner me n my sis walked around the place while eating ice cream and looked at the stars. soooooo many stars. soooooo preeeeettty. went back inside and slept to the bang-bangs(not whirr) of the ceiling fan.

Day 3:
woke up super early. 5.00 am. still very dark and very very cold. got ready, packed bag and went off to breakfast(which was very nice). then we were off to the hot springs. slept alot on the bus. woke up and ooh-aahed at the scenery. reached the hot springs(which smelt of sulphur, bluergh). didnt get in because didnt bring anything to splash around with. instead went to hike up the hill to the canopies. me, sis, dad, mom, 2 pakciks, 1 makcik one cousin(the husband) and the tourguide hiked up the mountain. lots of slushy sippery steps.. got a backache from pulling mom n dad(especially dad) up the steps. finally reached the canopies. yay! the canopies are these narrow, 1-foot-wide bridges hung from very tall trees by nets. Very bouncy, very shaky. scary, no? the trees are very, very, tall. and its very very high up. not for the faint-hearted(and definitely not for my makcik whos scared of heights). walked on the canopies(knees buckling, heart pounding)to the other side. phew. went back down the hill. fun. whee. really proud of dad. showed real resistance and strength. and mom too. never faltered. smiled all the way. went back down, dipped feet in hot water from the hot spring and drank coconut juice. nice. then went off to see the rafflesia flower. u noe, the biggest flower in the whole wide world?(and the ugliest). we thought it was gonna be in some nice, covered place with controlled temperature or something but nooooo. it was in some danky ol forest. we had to dodge fallen bamboo, jump over streams, walk on slimy soil to this very cramped, very smelly corner of the forest to look at the ugliest and smelliest flower in the world. with bugs buzzing around it. it was so ugly, it looked like something from an alien planet. and the cost to see it? 10 ringgit per person. the funniest thing about the trip was that there was techno music coming from deep inside the forest... maybe it was an underground forest discotech or sumthing. hahak. after the very dissapointing, very lame trip to see the ugliest flower in the world, we went to lunch at mt kinabalu park(at the foot of mt kinabalu). very very cold. but nice.then we went back down the mountains to the city, checked in at the same hotel we went to the first day, bla bla, it was nighttime. then we went to the nightmarket(shit). every stall there was selling the same thing. pearls. dont even know if theyre real. pearl bracelets, pearl necklaces, pearl earrings, pearl everything. i was getting more n more pissed by the second. and remember the stupid makcik whos afraid of heights? ya, she stopped at EVERY figgin shop there for at least 20 minutes. and we had to wait for her. she was SO BLOODY IRRITATING!!!!! most of us were super hungry and super tired by that time and we had to wait for this stupid makcik who was bargaining and bargaining the shit out of everything. when she finally snapped out of it, we walked to the restaurant for our dinner. the restaurant was preparing a long table for us and were rushing. then there was this tiny round table. one stupid pakcik said, "meh kite dudok sane ah, sini meja panjang, susah nak amik laok. sini tengah2 boleh pusing pusing." and there the waiters were rushing to prepare our table. poor ppl. the stupid round table cant fit everybody. i was super pissed by then. then when we all sat down(with much difficulty), that stupid pakcik said again "eh, diorang dah siap meja tu, meh kite dudok sane". ishk. uurgh. so pissed. then the food came. soup first. guess what it was? it was shark's fin. great. i looked at it, and i thought of all the dead sharks, and i cried. really. i cried. not loudly lah. and that stupid pakcik said to me, "apasal tak makan sup tu? sedap eh sadap.." i cried even more. stupid pakcik. after dinner we went back to the hotel.

Day 4:
Day 4 was shopping day. went to the philipino market. bot myself a ukelele. 25 ringgit. but good ol dad bargained it until it was 10 ringgit. hahk.mom bot soooo many things. then we went to a shopping mall(wit aircon). bot jeans. then we went for lunch. nicest lunch ever. then we went back to the hotel and took a nap and packed up and went to the airport. had a headache by then. massive. got on the plane, took a panadol, slept, woke up, felt better, ate(airplane food bluergh), took care of very sick mom n sis(both puking away like nobody's bussiness), slept, airplane landed, went off, took bags, bla bla, went back to my house in johor. next day, woke up, went back here. to hell. sis n mom still sick.
.end.

man, this is the longest entry ive ever written. heh.

pictures

2004-12-03T18:44:00.000+08:00

ehem. for my fans who have been waiting for more pictures of (ehem) me, i have uploaded them in 2 special albums labelled me1 and me2. these albums contain never-been-seen, very exclusive images for your viewing pleasure. Remember, go to me1 first before u go to me2. Enjoy.

Yes it was him.

2004-12-03T15:08:00.000+08:00

And his sister. "So you dont need to worry.."
Its raining again. my left eye is very painful. there is A Pulse there.
twitch twitch.
there is nothing to do around this house. Nothing.
ehT serutnevdA fO eisuS eht lerriuqS .enO gnirps gninrom eisuS lerriuqS ekow pu.
aaaaaaahah.
onion onion tut tut tut.
bawang bawang put put put.
onion tut.
bawang put.
.gnawab .noino .tut .tup
:D

helo helo back..

2004-11-26T16:09:00.000+08:00

helo helo.. i really dont have anything to write anymore. i mean, i keep things i want to say in my head when im doing stuff but when i on the com to put it up as a post, i completely forget whatever it was that i want to say. u noe?? so, im not really doing anything. my life. is. boring. oh ya. uh.. just caught 'shutter' just now. its scary. kindof. ya, especially the part where the ghost pulled the guy's blanket from him when he was trying to sleep. then she crawled up the bed.. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! ok, i didnt scream, but i was near to. ok, so.. guess dats it. bye.

aaaahhh... i can smell it.

2004-11-13T22:26:00.000+08:00

yes yes. Raye always has that smell. that certain happy smell. u get happy when u smell it. like ull get happy when u smell rendang, rite? or lodeh or ketupat. wait. ketupats dont smell. or do they?
anyway. my mom is fussing over my dad's baju raye, n humming a raye song, my dad is putting money in envelopes, my sis is ironing her baju raye, the house smells of rendang, its warm, everythings fuzzy and so very happy, i LOVE LOVE LOVE it.
ehem ehem. Slamat hari raye semua semua. Mintak ampoonn banyak banyak!!
well, enjoy.. :D

yyyyaaaaaaahooooooooooooooooo!!!

2004-11-12T21:56:00.000+08:00

the kids at the block in front of mine is playing wit mercuns i think. there are wiiiiiiiiiiiioooooooooooooooooooooosssssssssshhhhhhhhh!!!!!! sounds every five seconds. oh, there it is again. dam dam dum, bunyi mercun. kanak kanak semua datang berduyun! and at the other end of the block, i see a couple of kids playing bunge api.. nak join boleh??? ok, now all the wwiiiiiiiiioooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooossssssshhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! sounds are getting a tad bit annoying. oi diamlah bodoh!!! diisytiharkan, lusa, 14 november 2004, dah RAYE!!!! yyyyyyyaaaaaaaaaahhhhhoooooooooooooo!!!!!!!
.lets sing.
"ewah ewah kain lagsir ela ela, nenek rambut putih, datuk janggut merah, emak jangan meleter, bapak jangan marah, jangan masuk kolong, hari ini hari raya!!!!"

happy holidays ppl.

and we're all dead now.

2004-11-09T21:13:00.000+08:00

well. maybe not you. but i feel dead.

i want it back. NOWW!!!!

2004-11-06T21:30:00.000+08:00

i want my digicam back. i want it back!! y do my parents have to give it away to my brother??!! wad does HE need for?? now i have to save hundreds of dollars before hari raye to get me a new one. and digicams dont come cheap. the cheapest is $200++. where am i gona find that kind of money???!!! and to make matters worst, my dad has stopped giving me pocket money cus its ramadan n he said i dun need to buy anything.......
shit. happens.
oh ya. i chopped my hair off. again. yea, yea, i noe wad youre thinking. "Dont you have anything else to do? wad, is cutting ur hair your hobby or sumthing?" actually, yea. it is my hobby. i like my hair. i think its pretty. i love to play wit it. you should too. it makes you happy. cause its fun!

i m b o r e d.

2004-10-29T11:12:00.000+08:00

yea, i am. more bored than ever. i feel like i need something, but i dunno what. what do i need? what? what??
aniway, yesterday was lit camp. for the first time, im a mentor. to a bunch of clueless little sec 1s. it was okay, but some of em really really got on my nerves.. like that crazy girl in the other group who laughs and talks like a maniac. she thinks shes so funny, but really, shes not. at all. and her little friend, thinks hes so cute. aw, cmon. stop it. ugh. *cringes*
ran around alot, yesterday. played dog n bone,hahahk, dat was super fun. then had find some missing ppl, and got to(yay!) scold them. hahahahhkk really fun acting angry at them. they were so scared. i think. i hope they were anyway....
anyway, after the whole thing was over me min n nana went to break fast at swensens. yum yum yum... i drank the super fudge malt and it was heaven...
then went home and took a long hot shower, watched some tv then slept. best sleep ive had for days.. woke up at ten to my sister's wailing. ugh shes such an asshole in the mornings.

kay, i think thats enough. i think ive bored you enough. too long an entry is not the best thing. bye.

SLAMAT HARI RAYE!!!!

2004-10-19T13:20:00.000+08:00

k. maybe not yet, but its Ramadan!. "mari kita sahur, sahur, sahur sahur sahur..."

anyway, exams are fi na l l y oooo veee r r r . . . ..

ive been waiting for this day. i will play the computer till my eyes go blind. i will watch tv until it goes dead. i will play my guitar until my fingers bleed. i will.. i will.. sleep! until the bed breaks in two. or something. AND NO ONE CAN STOP MEEE!!! nnnyyyaaaaahahahahahahahahahhh!!! *beats chest wit hands like King Kong*

but.

im hungry. and its only 12.30. 6 n a half more hours to go. uuunnnhhhhh...

oh well.

tag replies:
[roy] OH NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!
[nana n min] yeah yeah!!! but i dunno if my parents will let me gooo....
[shafa89] helo helo!! hehek it is a small world aint it. yeap, snz my ol fren.. and yea, im an aries.. y? heh. thanx fer visiting! please come again. :D

where am i??

2004-10-10T20:32:00.000+08:00

Exams. Tomorrow. me. Dead.

Heres to us..

2004-10-03T19:24:00.000+08:00

yeah. its sunday. im a whopping 38.8 degrees rite now. been doing nothing but sleep all day. i think my immune system's giving up on me.

Friday: got up on the bus, saw .. *gasp* Elvis Presley! or maybe just someone who looks like him.. heh. its this really really tall, super huggable looking guy. he was wearing the civil defense uniform. i saw his nametag. it said "Azwan" or something liddat. he really does look like Elvis Presley, i swear! and then in the same bus, standing directly in front of me, is this guy who looked like the famous indonesian actor, Ari Wibowo. super gorgeous. hehe.

yesterday night: went to NUS to watch the a play. " My Fair Singapore Lady", performed by ITE students. it was not so bad, but not that good either. but a lot of effort was put in, so i give them a thumbs up for that.. through the whole play i was sneezing, wheezing n sniffing. reached home at 12 am. ishk. first time i reach home that late... so i slept. then ard 4 am i woke up shivering like a madwoman. felt my forehead. burning hot. put on a sweater n went back to sleep. woke up at 12 noon. hahak, burok.

yeah. dats it. bye..

baba dan nyonya... makan epok epok..

2004-09-29T17:21:00.000+08:00

did you understand what i was talking about in th previous entry? i bet you didnt! cuz i didnt too!! ahahahhk!
anyway, nothing much happened. just got sick again yesterday, and now i sound like a frog. ew. i keep getting sick. i hate it. even though i get to skip skule, its still not fun cuz ull be stuck in bed. and your best friend is the tissue box and you can smell nothing and taste nothing.
anyway. tomorrow is my higher malay exam.. and the next day is my english exams. ishk. time flies. next thing ill know ill wake up old and haggard playing chess in the old folks' home... scary.
ok uh. thats all i can squeeze in for now. heh. see ya.

the yellow room.

2004-09-24T22:11:00.000+08:00

hello.. wads your name? how old are you?? oohh.. u like to eat burgers ah?
right this way, here you go.. im going to start off with this, ok? (will it hurt?) no... just ticklish.. haha.. ok, how? ok? fine? more? no? ok.
ill be back in an hour.. just call me if you need anything..

*shuts the door*

mummy???

.you spoilt my day u selfish pigfaced asshole.

2004-09-20T22:19:00.000+08:00

heres wad happened.
i was going home from higher malay lesson. took the usual 903 from wdlnds int. the bus was crowded so i stood at the door.
a few stops before mine, there was this guy coming from my right. and another guy from my left. and another lady from behind me. so i had nowhere to go. so i squished myself to a pole on my right to let everybody through. then the guy who came from my right was trying to push himself through everybody and then he hit my bag then he tsk-ed at me and said "haiiyyooooo" in a deep, half disappointed half angry n irritated, off putting sort of way. which then ticked me off competely, cus i was tired n i was having a headache. den i gave him that angry look and then he got off the bus n walked off, his head still turned to me and giving me that "im angry at you. and you have to be sorry." face. then when the doors closed n the bus went off, i can see from inside he was pointing pointing at me from outside.
WHHHHAAAATT IISSSS YYOOOUUURRR BBBLLLLOOODDYYYYY PPRRRROOOBBBLLLEEEMMM????!!!!
i was so pissed.
i felt like crying.
ugh.

go to hell you selfish pigfaced motherf*****r i hope you get hit ny a lorry and die a slow, horrible, painful death.

dont ever make me angry.
or ill curse you.

im sorry

2004-09-20T13:48:00.000+08:00

helohelo.. sorry ive not been updating since last tuesday.. got stuff to do i miss blog world.. and i hope u guys miss me too....hah.

its 1.05 pm.
i am in the com lab.
i am having a headache.
i just bought new contact lenses for my very rabon eyes.
took a very long lomg time to put them on. maybe because im not experienced enough.
oh no. i have to go. bye.

hope im not getting burung-flu..oh no.

2004-09-14T16:29:00.000+08:00

yeah. din go to skool today. final year is just a few more weeks away. oh no. oh no. oh no.
f.r.i.e.n.d.s are over. so sad.. oh no.
mosquitos are multiplying in this house. oh no. maybe im getting dengue fever... oh no. oh no.
the weather is so crazy these past few days. first it gets reallty hot. then it gets really really windy. sumtimes it raines sumtimes it doesnt. then it rains. the it stops raining. oh no. theres something wrong with the ozone layer. we're all gona die. oh no. oh no.
oh no.
oh no.

new skin. again.

2004-09-12T22:37:00.000+08:00

hahak. i love doing these stuffs. its so fun. hahak. well, dis is my new skin, hope u like it. cus i LOVE it. red is just sooo nice. and so me. anyway, the tagboard's not moving. keep it moving ppl! hahahk. soo uhh. yeap. see ya!

open eyes.

2004-09-12T13:36:00.000+08:00

the wind is making whhoooooo whhoooooo sounds again. but less loud this time. i hope the window panes will not break. yesterday the front window wasnt closed and the wind suddenly picked up n got really strong. one of my mom's vases on the table fell over n broke. my mom got real sad.. heh. she blamed my dad for not closing the windows. hahak.
well, finally, its raining. really hard. the weather was sooo hot at noon just now and now its raining like mad. i like rain. rain makes me happy n sleepy. ill get happy n then ill get sleepy..
anyway, tomorrow skule starts.. awww mmmaaannnn.... i havent even begun to enjoy the holidays yet n now i have to go back to skooooolll.... i cant wait till i finish my education. but of course thats a looonngg way ahead. im not even near the end. boo.

foooddd....

2004-09-11T13:54:00.000+08:00

oh god. im so hungy. i need food. my stomach is grumbling. im feeling weak. i think im gona die.... theres no food in the house. we will staaaaarrrrrvvvvveeeee!!!!!!! *falls dead on the floor*

what did you sayy???

2004-09-09T13:43:00.000+08:00

to all the ppl who just came back from mount ophir, WELLCOOOMMMEEE BBAAACCKKK!!! heheh. you were missed.

im so bored. tried to do abit of homework.. but lost interest after one pathetic question.. having tuition later.. wit that balding guy. EW. i hate him. he gets on my nerves.

bot a t-shirt yesterday. whee~ am wearing it now.. hahak. i have absolutely nothing to do.. the stuffs i have to do, i dont want to do. whats wrong wit me??!!

i just dont know what to do with myself..

i know..

2004-09-08T22:29:00.000+08:00

hahak. yeah. i do. i know... hehehhehhh... iiii kknnnnnoooooowwwwww...... .....
BOO! hahak. fine im kidding. im bored.

batgirll!!!!

2004-09-07T22:52:00.000+08:00

i dunnoe wad's gotten into me. hahak. go ahead. laugh all you want. look under StupidComic..

getting married looks funn..

2004-09-06T15:04:00.000+08:00

i wana get married tooo.. it looks so fun.. dress up, take loads of pictures, eat, get money, dress up summore, n take more pictures... hai.. fun fun..
my cousin got married yesterday. his wedding was kinda wierd. my cousins are motorcycle freaks, so they put two huge gigantic motorcycles parked at the sides of the 'pelamin'.. hahak. anyway. i had to help out wit the giving out of berkats. soooooooooooooooooo tiring... and alot of makciks ah.. i tell you.. banyak songeh btol! "dik, dik, boleh mintak due lagi tak? untok kawan makcik, abeh tu, ahh budak punye berkat, cucu makcik tak dapat datang.." urgh. by 3 pm my legs felt as if they were gona fall off.. good thing i wasnt wearing heels. but at least we got 10 dollars for it.. yay!
but the whole thing was quite fun ah. they had kompang boys n silat. my twin cousins did the silat.. they used the keris n all.. and they were gooooooodd... and there was this really cute silat guy.. eeeehehhehehehhhh!! so cute. hehehh.
but theres one thing i dont like. i keep getting harrased by this makcik. she keeps calling me her daughter in law. like when i arrived there in the morning, she was like, "eh! menantu aku!!!" or sumthing like that. her son is the same age as me. we were kinda like childhood friends but its been a long time since ive seen him. yeah so yesterday i saw him. he looked the same. abit darker though. and a bit thinner. and alot taller. but still the same.
anyway. after the whole thing was over, i slept over at my aunts place. yeah n last nite, sumthing got into my right eye n it swelled up. hahak.
yea, so i guess dats it. byee

go away.

2004-09-04T18:13:00.000+08:00

to: CoReSiCk.
i have questions for you.
ehem.
1) whooooo are you????
2) do i even know you??
3) do you know me??
4) how do you know me??
4) what relations do you have with me??
6) have i ever done anything wrong to you?
7) have i offended you in any way at all??
8) why are you so angry that i put a Thursday song on my blog??
9) is Thursday your band??
10) do i have to have a license to put a Thursday song on my blog?
11) or are you Thursday's manager, that i have to come to you before i put a Thursday song on my blog?
12) or am i not allowed to put any songs AT ALL??
13) are you my parents?
14) are you GOD?????
15) is there a rule book or something that i missed out on that tells ppl what to do when they decide to listen to such songs??
16) what rules are there?
17) why are you using an anonymous nickname?
18) why dont you use your REAL name and show ppl what a good, pure, trueblooded 'core-ean' you are?
19) if you really are that good a 'core-ean', why are you still here reading blogs of sell out freaks like me and not out somewhere else showing your fantastic 'core' talents to other pure, trueblooded core-eans like yourself??
20) WHY DO I HAVE TO GET PICKED ON ALL THE TIMMEEEEE???????!!!! ARGH!!

-day spoilt-
from:.naj.

haaahh.. jawab, jawab..

lets talk gibberish

2004-09-02T20:26:00.000+08:00

i failed to not talk for the whole day. i lost a dollar.
.im sad.
i realised that i havent cried for a long long long time. the last time i remembered i cried really hard was two years ago in sec 1. my friend gave me a kitten. stray. so i took it home. my mom asked me to put it back where i found it. which was skool. so the next day i took it back to skool. that day i had this thing calld music exchange, and i was out of skool for the whole day. my friend n her other frend put the kitty in a box n put it in the teacher's room for safe keeping. so we were gone for the whole day.we came back at 630pm. i suddenly remembered the kitty. so my fren n her other fren went up to take it back. when they did i took one look at the kitty and i just cried. hard. she was soo small n shivering n hungry. and soooooo goddamn cute. i held her and just bawled my eyes out. i gave her biscuits. then my fren took her home. and named her chomel(stupid name). now shes a fat little cat wit a huge ass. after that incident-which was rather stupid uh but wadever- i dont remember crying. until now. wanting to cry, yes. creid abit(a teeny weeny bit),yes. but not hard. so. yeah, make me cry. so i can remember wat it feels like.

happy teachers' daeeee...

2004-08-31T22:28:00.000+08:00

tommorrow is teachers day. holiday. weeehoooo!!
went back to si ling primary jus now. no memories. because they moved to a new building. and i only studied at the old building. so the new building is kinda meaningless to me. and there was alot of crap there too. like, "Si Ling Wetland" n "Si Ling Pond" n "Si Ling Pirate Ship" or sum shit. lotsa computers here n there. but all spoilt. hah.
Arrived there ard 3+. met Fatin there. and sum of my old frens like Yusyaidah, whos supposed to be shorter than me but sumhow grew the past 2 years to be soooo goddamn bloody taller than me. Haryati, Adila, Khairul, Hairil, n sum other ppl i dun remember their names.. when we arrived, the skule was totally empty. no teachers, nuthing. jus a few secondary skool students walking ard waiting. the teachers had hi-tea. so we waited for them to cum back..
my former teacher, ms lee, or mrs michael, rather, came back ard 430.. so we talked n talked n talked until 630. hahk. we wished her happy teachers' day, and we all go home together gether..

i miss primary school. everything was soooo simple back then. no concerns.. no worries. just play ting-ting all day.

whoohoo!!

2004-08-31T12:42:00.000+08:00

yesss!!! finally able to type!! typetypetypetypetypetype.. hahak. the last few days i couldnt type cus my blogger is having i dun noe what problems so i waited n waited and finally i figured it all out. hahak. *pats self on the back*

anyway.
actually, alot happened these last few days but now ive fergotten everything. hahak. oh yea.

Saturday:
parents went to jempotan. was watching tv. got a call frm kampong. one of my uncles just passed away. *innalillah*. called my mom. mom n dad came home panicked. at first they asked me n sis to cum along wit them. go balik kampong. but later decided they didnt want us to go. "take care of the house!", they said. okay.

Sunday:
woke up soooooo late. almost one. cus the nite b4 slept soooooo late. did nuthing the whole day. literally.

Monday:
parents not back yet. so had to take bus to skule. walking to bus stop wit sis. suddenly, sis said. "oh shit wheres my handphone??!!" on the bed. u fergot to take it. "Im supposed to meet my friend today!! i need my fone!" here. u can have mine. im not gona use it anyway. SO WRONG. life is sooo difficult w/o handphone.
after skule, did lots n lots of waiting. for nothing. NOTHING. pissed. angry.

but... saw you. and u looked at me. ME. U. LOOKED. AT. ME. *floats*

yeah. so. Today:
woke up late. 10++. didnt go to skule. whee! anyway, HAPPY TEACHERS' DAYYYY!!!! haha.

lets eat woooooorrrmmsss

2004-08-28T01:00:00.000+08:00

yeah.. finally changed the background.. but layout still the same.. how isit? nice? not nice?
aaaaahhahahahha its 1 am.. and i have to wake up early tmr.. wad time? seeevvveeenn ffoorrrtyyy fiivvveeeeee............ *falls unconcious on the floor*

.oh.

2004-08-25T13:13:00.000+08:00

im kinda bored wit my skin.. i think im gona change it again..
anyway.. sorry fer not updating for a long time already.. been kinda busy lately.
hmm.. not much has been going on these past few days. same ol same ol. so, umm i gtg.. see ya..

.chocolate.

2004-08-19T20:39:00.000+08:00

YES!! tomorrow is finally the last paper!! weeehhoooooo!!! heh.
to day was fun.. after skule me, nana, min, erma, fadilah, finaz n irsyad went to swensen's... it was really just a spontaneous thing. fadilah just out of the blue said, "eh, swensen's ice cream 5 scoops $1.40!" den we decided to go.. hah! yea, man thats cheap. cheap. but me, nana, min n finaz decided to eat sumthing else cus the menu was soooo full of tempting chocolate stuff. so i ate sticky chocolate sumthing sumthing. fergot wads the name uh.. too long. hahak but it was soooooo heavenly delicious... *drools*
yeah. then after ice cream irsyad offered me n nana a free ride home on his bike. you rock dooooode!! heheh the whole ride was fun but a bit uncomfortable. 3 ppl on one bike. from yishun all the way to woodlands. heh me n nana took turns sitting at the front and standing at the back. sent nana home first den irsyad dropped me off sumwhere in front of the market near my house. oh yah. got a scar on my leg from the bike tyre.. heh but it was fun..
yea so dats basically it. nitteee..

you looked at me. me??you were looking at me??

eye bags and warm milk..

2004-08-17T17:54:00.000+08:00

i am officially sick of studiying. tomorrow is physics and amaths paper. .i.have.abandoned.all.hope.

but.. i wont give up just like that.. oh no.. i am going to try! i can do it!

aww. who am i kidding..

anyway, i totally fergot what happened yesterday. nowadays my attention span is getting really short..

i wana see you everyday. all the time. but where the hell did you go??!! dont leave me!!

Just dont know what to do wit myself.

2004-08-15T13:18:00.000+08:00

my parents are not back yet so here i am sneaking an entry.. havent updated since last thursday.. reason being my parents have suddenly become slave drivers.. all they want me to do is study n clean up the house.. but whatever. im trying my best not to let them get to me..

...........................................................................................
actually, i really dont know what to write.. nuthing's been happening. nothing exciting or wierd. just ordinary. boring. uninteresting. dumb. same ol same ol.

you have freckles... how cute.

can i just die tommorrow..?

2004-08-12T17:35:00.000+08:00

yesterday night was shitty. went to watch a concert(the ticket guy was cutecute his name was tom) which ended at ard 945. after dat i wanted to go to hmv for a while to find this cd, but it was out of stock. let me tell you something. after 10, dont ever hope to get a taxi. even when hundreds, no, THOUSANDS of VACANT taxis pass by.. they wont stop. well, at least they didnt when me, sylvia n syara were flagging... to all the taxi uncles who didnt stop for us,

i hate you!!!

and too bad u didnt get our money.. we went all the way to woodlands..

15 bucks u noe!!!! dowan ur money??

anyway, i reached home at 1130.. and i was pissed.

so, today was amira's birthday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMIRA!!! sorry i had to go home early.. i had tuition ah.. wit that ugly fella again. 2 hours of physix.. w e e e ~ *&&^%$$#%^&%$$#!@$&%*

yea.. so uh.. guess dats it for now..

u smell like a baby prostitute..

2004-08-10T16:49:00.000+08:00

heya.. happy belated national day.. fergot to write a post yesterday.. so im writing it today instead..
hmm.. yesterday.. nuthing much happened.. bored. really bored. the at 6 watched ndp parade. it was pretty fun.. my mom fried french fries n made iced milo n we all muched while watching the parade..i love the march pass best.. oooo all those commandos n the guards of honour looking smart n suave in their uniforms.. peeweet!~
then there was singapore idol.. heheheh funny funny.. who wouldve guessed singaporeans would be so smangat, even funny... my favourite was the guy who sang so soft nobody could hear him.. hehehhh den he asked for comments.. huarhuar!! "Please do not adjust the volume of your television sets."......
anyway, today, supposed to have emaths make-up lesson but it was
cancelled(i think).. so sat at home den syayma n jana came over to do project werk.. yea, n for our presentation, syayma wrote for each of us speeches. and mine was like, one n a half page full. damn, its soooo long. its more like a compo than a speech. but its ok, thanx syayma, fer all your effort. you rock.
sooo... tommorow's my english paper.. wish me luck. ugh.

2004-08-07T18:32:00.000+08:00

the happy gang..

im hot.

2004-08-07T15:31:00.000+08:00

fever. sux aint it. my temp. was 38.8 yesterday.. had tuition but had to stop halfway cus i was sssooooo stoned out i cant hear a thing wad the guy was talking bout.. and he was teaching me PHYSICS! goddamit. no wonder im so sick. so last nite i slept at 845 n i woke up dis morning at 11++... ugh.
anyway. yesterday was national day celebrations. the skule band had to play a piece for the flag bearing thingie n the national anthem. so we had to reach skule by 630 to set everything up.. went up n down and back up and back down again and even before the whole thing starts, i was sweating like there was not tomorrow.. yea, but we played quite well..

so then after the whole ceremony there was a mini concert in the hall. then there was a sing-along session. that was funn.. the band members were sitting at the back and we were screaming n jumping and jumping around like monkeys..

after dat i changed into my punjabi suit.. den we watched the volleyball match.. after skule the whole lot of us went to northpoint bk for lunch.. den we took lotsa pix.. den i stared to get sicker.. den we walked around np then we went to amira's house and watched '50 first dates'. den went home.. the end.

where were you????

hingus.

2004-08-05T21:32:00.000+08:00

*sniff sniff* i think im getting the flu. my head feels all groggy n heavy. and my nose is all red n painful. heh. changed the font cus min complained dat the previous ones r too small.. so, min, how? big enuff for yoouuuu???? hehehe..
anyway.. cant wait for tmr.. national day celebrations.. whee~ finally get to wear my mama suit..
uhh.. eh? i fergot wad i actually wanted to write.. so.. uhh.. ya. guess days it. byebye..

new chair..

2004-08-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

wheee!! my dad just bot a new chair frm ikea.. wheeee!!~ im like spinning around on it cus its so comfy n blue..
after skule went to np to top up hidayah's fone.. den went to civic centre wit roy, ema, nana n hakim to borrow some books.. all the way frm kfc to 3rd level of the library nana couldnt stop laughing.. hahak.. i have no idea wads so funny, but she was laughing like a madwoman.... wads wrong wit u???
den after dat went walking round cp.. bored cus its the same ol stuff all the time..
OH!!! den we went to metro and i saw this really really cute dress.. its really light pink and the skirt ends below the knee and its very kembang kembang.. ok, so now i noe wad dress i wanna make for prom.. if there ever will be one.. *crosses fingers*.
den we went to the mens' section and saw these bruce lee-like shirts wit the frog buttons n all.. den we girls forced hakim n roy to try it on.. and they did! Roy looked sharp!! and hakim was twice as cute.. yea.. wonderful how a $50++ shirt can make a difference in your appearance..
yea.. so after dat we went home..
ok, my eyelids are getting droopy.. i wana go sleep now.. nitenite.

masked behind..

2004-08-02T21:29:00.000+08:00

hello there... the angel from my nightmare.. hahak.. ok. stop. anyway.. i do look like a nightmare rite now. im wearing this green mask dats supposed to purify my pores.. its hard now.. and i cant move my face muscles at all because if i do the mask will crack. and ill look twice as scary.. booohooo..~
my sis is making funny noises in the backgound so im using all my willpower not to smile....

ok, i failed. i smiled. shit. the mask cracked. brb. *goes off to wash face*

ok, back. oooo.. this stuff is good.. my skin feels so smooth, so soft.. ok. stop.

anyway. today was okay.. played volleyball after skule today. saw him.. he was eating a mr.softee.. eeeee so cute!! alamak.. suddenly craving for mr softee.. yum yum. yea, so dat was it den sat around watching the rest play v.ball den went home wit yayah..
ok, so.. guess dats all fer today.. see ya round byotches..

dying of boredom

2004-08-01T16:35:00.000+08:00

nuthing much happened... onli that i woke up today feeling like crap cus i had cramps(girl thing).. guys are so lucky they dont have those.. u feel like puking, shitting and fainting all at the same time. and ull feel really really cold. and.. ok, im gonna stop.

new skin~

2004-07-31T17:46:00.000+08:00

wee!~ got a new skin!!! changed it 2 time over the past week.. didnt update for quite sum time..
anyway, still waiting for my tagboard to come.. i dunno how to put it there so i asked my friend to do it.. and she still hasnt dun it yet.. heheh.. its ok, beb. take ur time..
soo.. hmm.. lets see.. nuthing much happened this past week..pretty much the same.. but i laughed alot though.. guess im kinda happy. i dunnoe why.
well, got bored in class and yayah gave me this cute little cadbury notebook, so i decided to make it into an interactive book.. during class ill pass it around and ask ppl to write wadever they want. its fun! hahak, ppl write all kinds of lame shit, especially me...
the other day i went out wit my sis after skule. we went to Bishan cus i needed to buy a new pencil box and a new wallet. so we walked around and finally i found one really cule pencil case. it has zippers all around it. and it was in all shades of purple.. so needless to say i bot it with no hesitation.. nyeheh.. i love it. so then we went to cp and i found this really cute wallet wit sparkly swirly stuff all over.. hahahk so i bot that one too. im so happy!!! ive been stuck wit that same red wallet since my mom n sis gave it to me for my 11th birthday. and my previous pencil case wasnt really mine.. i found it somewhere and its been wit me since.. now i can finally get rid of em!!! weehoo!!~
oh.. i fergot one thing. on wednesday ai concert band had an assembly performance. and we had to wear our band uniform. so after the performance(which sucked a whole lot i felt so bad) i came back up and went to the toilet to change. in the cubicle, i remembered i didnt bring along my skule shoes.. so i after i finished changing i ran back to the music room, where i last saw my shoes. and thats when i found that it wasnt there. my shoes. my brand new only 3 weeks old converse shoes which my sis bot for me for 40 bucks and i had to pay back every cent of it. my shoes... GONE. i was so pissed. den i became sad. very sad. so i took all my stuffs, put on my court shoes(band shoes) and took a taxi home. but i became happy again when i came to skool the next day. i dunnoe why.. god, im wierd.
so, i think thats all.. see ya around byotches..

saw you alot this week..

no wonder im so happy...

u make my knees weak...

and my head feels all giddy..

everytime you walk by..

i feel like i wana die..

my cancer.

give me an answer.

homewerk sux.

2004-07-27T22:55:00.000+08:00

so its a tuesday.. and im actually supposed to do my homewerk but whatever. posting is much more fun.
anyway, yesterday was soooooo fun! it was yuen shan's b'day(happy bdae!!) and we celebrated it at yusmar's house(i have no idea how we ended up there). but it was the funnest time ive had in a long time... i envy his parents.. theyre huge fans of rock music, and his mom is so outgoing.. it was so easy to talk to her..
anyway, we ate pizza and chicken and cake, and yusmar's dad put on old rock concert vcds. like Scorpions, Deep Purple, etc. the whole house was ROCKIN!! then his mom showed us pictures of yusmar when he was a baby.. (ahahah!! you cute little thing you..) but after dat min, nana, lina n erma had to go off.. they missed the fun part. we all crammed into yusmar's room(which by then stunk of sweat and some unidentified 'manly smells') and we took turns telling each other ghost stories.. hehehheeh.. Qi Xian interupted practically everyone when they were telling their stories but it turned out his story was the freakiest... so we did dat till six, then we went off home.. ( i called my sis to come meet me at cp cus i was too freaked to go on the lift alone, thanx to Qi Xian's story).

weehoo!!

2004-07-25T13:59:00.000+08:00

yesterday was funn... went out wit snz after a long long time.. wee~ shes so cute la..
anyway. we went for a movie marathon.. ok, not marathon exactly, cus we only watched 2 movies. Connie & Carla and Mean Girls. Connie n Carla was kinda corny at first, but as it goes on its pretty meaningful.. but kinda freaky though.. seeing all those transvestite ppl..
den after connie n carla, we decided to go back to wdlnds den i realised i lost my ezlink card. ugh. tried to find it back in the cinema.. and in the toilet.. nowhere.. argh! den had to ride the bus back to wdlnds. boo.. den went home. shit arh have to make another ezlink card.... urgh.

drained.

2004-07-23T22:27:00.000+08:00

i cannot think anymore. i had 3 non-stop hours of maths tuition. 3 HOURS!!!! imagine that. 3 hours wit an ugly middle aged tutor wit a receding hairline. my mom served him orange juice, and everytime he takes a sip he makes this revolting slurping noise. and after he swallowed hell make an even more revolting noise by slapping his tongue against the top of his mouth. uuuuuuuuuuueeerrrrrhhggghhhhhh.....eew. come on man have sum fuckin manners.
anyway. saw ~him~ alot of times today.. wee! heh. made my day you cute little thing you.. :P

ET phone hhooooommmeeeee.......

2004-07-22T09:53:00.000+08:00

aaahahahhahahah!!! i look like an ALIEN!! seriously, i do. i dunno y, but sumthing got into y eyes yesterdae and since last night its been swollen like fuck.. i was so shocked last nite when i got up at 2 to pee.. looked into the mirror and.. AAAHH!!!!!!!! alien eyes staring back at me. then i woke my sister up and she got the shock of her life. ahahahak! sempat sei, takotkan orang.
anyway, now im at home. my mom didnt want me to go to skue today. weeehhooooooo!!~ finally get to miss one day of skule...

lose myself in your eyes...

2004-07-20T21:22:00.000+08:00

ugh..sux to keep wanting the things u can never have.. or person, rather... hes like so out of my league.. i dun even noe y im so obsessed wit him in the first place... sheesh. snap put of it naj. ur never gona get him.

*sigh~

anyway.. i finally got to watch spidey 2..Tobey Mcguire is so cute!!!!
i think dats all fer today... byebye..

chocolate bars and apple juice..

2004-07-19T21:20:00.000+08:00

i love apple juice.. nuthing much happened todae... oh ya.. except the fact that my class got nagged, or rather, LECTURED, by 1st: bio teacher(whos well known for her manopause-induced mood swings) and 2nd: Project Work teacher(whose face i cant stand the sight of. his hair SUX!! his wardrobe SUX!! he desperately needs a facelift and an xtreme makeover and i mean XTREME..) they both babbled about responsibility, doing our homewerk, respecting the teachers, bla bla BLAAA... ugh.
then i went home. around 6 cus we had that english course thingie.. den my mom questioned me about y i didnt go for higher mother tongue.. i was so intimidated i made up this stupid lie.." kite pegi..tapi gate tutup..." ugh. idiot idiot idiot. of course she didnt believe me so she poked and proded till i told the innocent truth, which was the english course thingie.. so she went on about lying and GOD and how im so bad at lying and bla bla BLAAA. so now im fucked up.
ok, i think dats enuff fer today. byebye...

lets see...

2004-07-17T21:25:00.000+08:00

today was kinda fun.. had band practise in the morning.. supposed to have drill but it was raining.. so we played games instead.hahak.. we sat on each other.. u noe the game where everybody stand in a tight circle then everybody bend their knees and sit on each other..hahakk.. it as fun. i sat on wen nan.. and i got sat on by yusmar.. den we had to sit for like 3 minutes.. so we decided to do th eband cheer then i started dancing.. then wen nan became excited cus i was shaking ON him.. eww.. gross.. god, i cant believe i did dat.. ish. niways. i have to go now.. see ya byotches later.

so so tired..

2004-07-16T21:06:00.000+08:00

god damn.. im so sleepy. my eyes are droopy.. my body's achy.. eeeeedddeeeebbeeebbeeeeboo...
ugh. lifes so unfair.. everytime i wana do sumthing and be honest, it blows up in my face. it always blows up in my face.. like him, for instance. why must his idiot frens be so god damn nosey?? must they always butt in? huh? huh? huh? HUH?? now its all in a huge mess. and I have to cleen it all up.. fuck u all.. rrrrrrgggghhhhh...
aww.. i cant find any poem today. i have one though. its called 'chocolate cake' but its really long.. lazy wana type. oukay.. sleepy time. byebye.

it gets me so down down down down...

2004-07-15T21:41:00.000+08:00

Just another day... nuthing much happened. as usual.. my life is as boring as it always have been and always will be.. boring boring boring. so heres a poem:

The Owl and The Pussycat

The Owl and the Pussycat went to sea
In a beautiful pea-green boat
They took some honey, and plenty of money
Wrapped in a five-pond note.
The Owl looked up at the stars above,
And sang to a small guitar,
'O lovely Pussy! O Pussy, my love,
What a beautiful Pussy you are,
You are,
You are!
What a beautiful Pussy you are!'

Pussy said to Owl, 'You elegant fowl!
How charmingly sweet you sing!
O let us be married! too long have we tarried:
But what shall we do for a ring?'
They sailed away, for a year and a day,
To the land where the Bong-Tree grows,
And there in a wood a Piggy-wig stood,
With a ring at the end of his nose,
His nose,
His nose!
With a ring at the end of his nose.

Dear pig, are you willing to sell for one shilling
Your ring? Said the Piggy,'I will.'
So they took it away, and were married the next day
By the Turkey who lives on the hill.
They dined on mince, and slices of quince,
Which they ate with a runcible spoon;
And hand in hand, on the edge of the sand
They danced by the light of the moon,
The moon,
The moon,
They danced by the light of the moon...

By Edward Lear

hahak. cute.. *sigh...* wish my life was as simple as that... *sigh again...* guess i can only dream on...

just another day...

2004-07-14T21:58:00.000+08:00

nothing much happened. oh yah. i fergot. i had my 'O' LEVEL MALAY ORAL jus now.. it was the most nerve-wrecking thing ive ever experience.. its not like any old oral examination.. its waaayyy more scarier dan that.. my stomach was flipping the whole time that i waited for my turn and when it finally was my turn, i stammered like an idiot. the topik perbualan was about internet and instead of saying 'lelaman', i said 'halaman'. stupid stupid stupid. argh. wadever. wads done is done. im not gona think bout it animore..
so... i think no poem today.. bye now..

This be the Verse..

2004-07-13T20:55:00.000+08:00

Just as im writing this, my moms nagging at me about not studiying.. theres this show on suria about clever people and their achievements.. and my mom forced me to watch it..she said "look at these ppl and how they study.. y cant you be like them?? y are u like this?? huh? huh? HUH???!!" w . H . A . T . e . v . E . R.
cmon.. theres more to life than being outrageously clever.. ur gona die anyways.. and faster probably.. cus your brain will be overworked.
anyway.. saw him again today. at the library... their mt teacher didnt cum so they had to go to the library.. and i was having my free period.. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheeeee........ happy happy. hes so cute. anyway, heres a poem for all u guys out there who dont like your parents.

This Be The Verse
They fuck you up, your mum and dad.
They may not mean to, but they do.
They fill you up with the faults they had
And add some extra, just for you.

But they were fucked up in their turn
By fools in old-style hats and coats,
Who half the time were soppy-stern
And half at one another's throats

Man hands on misery to man.
It deepens like a coastal shelf.
Get out as early as you can,
And don't have any kids yourself.

by Philip Larkin

Love's Philosophy...

2004-07-12T21:06:00.000+08:00

wad a way to start the week.. my sis bot me new skuleshoes.. and the back is like, really high. and during pe i had to run. and my new shoes bit me. so i got blisters at the back of my ankles... ouch ouch ouch.
anyway. i hate running. it sux. i noe most ppl run to clear their heads, and they think its fun, but it just doesnt work for me.. for me, running is like dragging two huge jumbo jugs of milk hanging from your chest. and everytime u move youll have to be careful not to spill them. it sux! it sux to have two huge jugs of milk hanging from your chest!!! eeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrggghhhhhh.......!
anyway, after dat i didnt wana go to higher malay, cus ive got a migrane but fatin so convincingly assured me that its would be irresponsible for us to not go. so i took the bus there. when we reached there, we ended up going to mcdonalds. great.
yeah. i didnt see *him* alot today.. only during assembly.. *sigh~.. brown eyes.. heres a poem for you..

LOVE'S PHILOSOPHY
The fountains mingle with the river
And the rivers with the ocean,
The winds of heaven mix forever
With a sweet emotion;
Nothing in the world is single,
All things by a law divine
In one another's being mingle-
Why not I with thine?

See the mountain's kiss high heaven
And the waves clasp one another;
No sister-flower would be forgiven
If it disdain'd its brother:

And the sunlight clasps the earth,
And the moonbeams kiss the sea-
What are all these kissings worth,
If thou kiss not me?

by Percy Shelley.

so its ending..

2004-07-11T17:06:00.000+08:00

sundays about to be over.. shites.. aww.. mondays cuming.. all too soon.. boo.
anyways. talked sum shit wit naz n nana today on msn. and when i say shit i mean real shit. the topic of the day was KENTOT. hahak. den we got real bored n typed backwords.
.dab os ton sti ti fo gnah eht teg uoy ecno .nuf yllaer tub tlucuffid yllaer sti .siht ekil-(read from here)
ahahahak. yeah. so, i guess dats it. see ya byotchs later.

I am..

2004-07-11T15:55:00.000+08:00

I am: yet what i am none cares or knows,
My friends forsake me like a memory lane,
I am the self-consumer of my woes,
They rise and vanish in oblivions host,
Like shades in love and death's oblivion lost,
And yet i am, and live with shadows tost

Into the nothingness of scorn and noise,
Into the living sea of waking dreams,
Where there is neither sense of life nor joys,
But the vast shipwreck of my life's esteems;
And een the dearest- that I loved the best-
Are strange- nay, rather strange than the rest.

I long for scenes where man has never trod;
A place where woman never smiled or wept;
There to abide with my Creator, GOD,
And sleep as I in childhood sweetly slept;
Untroubling and untroubled where I lie;
The grass below- above the vaulted sky.

John Clare

2004-07-10T16:48:00.000+08:00

me n my trusty guitar...

whhoooooohhooooooo

2004-07-10T15:21:00.000+08:00

yay!!!! thanx to nana, who have made all of this possible.. luv ya mannnnn!!!!! if u don already noe, she put up all my links, and even the tagboard for me... hai...~ such a good friend..
anyway. i think im gona get flu. my sis just had flu and i think the germs passed on to me.. ive used up half the box of tissues already to blow my nose.. uehgk. yesterday nite watched nip/tuck. i love the show.. its so cule.. and den i watched "the cider house rules".. it was sooooo sad i cried.. and tobey mcguire was so cute.. so then i went to bed at 1 am. this morning i was supposed to have band. but i couldnt wake myself up.. was supposed to wake up at 6.30 but ended up waking at 11.30.. im such a slob..
oh yea. i fergot. yesterday was my first tuition session. it was so wierd cus last week was supposed to be the first one but my real teacher had an accident so the company replaced her wit an indian lady. but she lived in jurong and it was too far a distance to travel all the way here. so they replaced her wit this wierdly religious malay middle aged man named ibrahim. he made me n my sis recite the doa b4 he started teaching.. and when we ended we had to recite anothe doa.. sheesh.
so.. i think dats it.. damn, i write alot.. bye!
thank you nana!!!!!!!!(again)

today...

2004-07-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

today was fine.. xcept dat i arrived in skule just in time for assembly.. and i fergot to bring the fucking thermometer. and when i had to go to the general office to take my temperature, i didnt bring along 20cents. 20CENTS!!!!! so i was panicking like an idiot wen fortunaltely, dis sec one girl i recognised(but i never knew her name) came along. i asked her if she had 20 c and she had so she lent it to me.. PHEW.. wadever your name is, i love you.. saved my life.. den later dat dae we had 2 hours of free period.. went to the library. finished amaths hw the first hour den the next hour talked wit nana min fatin.. laughed alot.. and i mean alot.. den after skule went straight to causeway pt to meet my sis.. watched MEAN GIRLS.. whhooooohooo!! ive got the vcd and ive watched it like 55 times already n nearly memorised all the lines.. but watching it in the cinema was tons better.. den bot GATSBY hairspray.. yay! den went home. watched that 70's show.. took a shower. turned on the com n here i am now.. *yawn~.. shit. im so sleepy.. i think ill go sleep now.. nitenite..

wee~ new blog.

2004-07-08T22:24:00.000+08:00

wee~ i g0t a new bl0g! welc0me welc0me. actually t00k me a while t0 figure 0ut h0w t0 make these stuff.. im definitely n0t IT savvy. but anyway. i h0pe i update this bl0g regularly.. cus the last time i had 0ne, i didn update it f0r like, m0nths.. s0, erh.. dats all f0r n0w.. byebye.